CORONA LOCK DOWN I was in prison for 28 years. I did substantial portions of that time in prison inside the prison. I prison we make light of many things. One of those things, that no one in prison actually wants to ever have to deal with, is prison inside the prison--solitary confinement or segregation. When you get in a fight that goes bad ( by you hurting someone too much) or you get confirmed as a gang member or you get in a physical confrontation with one of the guards that work at the prison you wind up in solitary confinement. You only get one hour of the day out of your cell. And that's only on the days the guards feel like it. You get to live around people that have slightly and completely lost their minds. The only time you get to interact with these other people is by yelling over the walkways or going outside to your designated cage while they are in their's. All of your movements are restricted. Even more so than in regular prison popul...
THE DARK TIMES: When you are really fucked up. So fucked up you don't know who or what you are anymore. When you've done something that has scared people around you, close to you, away from you. The clouds will roll in. The sky will darken. And all the things of nightmares will descend from the darkness to visit you. They will come for you. All of those worst aspects of yourself. And all of the terrible things, and people, they attract. Your sanity will be assailed. Your mind will be bombarded. Noise will come from everywhere. The wails of the wounded. Being forced to relive what they have done everyday. Pills. Alcohol. weed. Speed. Something to slow down. Surrounded by those who've made themselves into their own demons. They hide from themselves in hazes. You will become one. Or... Pray to whatever god you wish. But there is a reason all of the old gods are dead--they never showed up. And there is a reason yours doesn't...
THE PROBLEM WITH US We are a species of predators. Our languages we use to muddy the water around this central truth about ourselves. Some of us try to be better. Sure, some of us eat meat, but we aren't serial killers because of it. Or are we? Some of us try to be better. And, in doing so, do not eat meat. These aren't serial killers either. Or are they? I'm quite sure the animals think of us as their killers when we kill them to eat them. And I am sure that the plant life eaten by the animals we eat think of them as their killers. We humans aren't just predators though, we are super predators. Very rapacious, greedy ones. It's never been enough for us to kill to eat. No. We want to kill what others want to eat just to keep them from getting it. And it's not just food in our cross hairs. We've divided ourselves into groups for a reason. Racial, ethnic, social, national groups all exist to give one group more resources...
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