The Dark Times




THE DARK TIMES:


When you are really fucked up. So fucked up you don't know who or what you are anymore.

When you've done something that has scared people around you, close to you, away from you.

The clouds will roll in. The sky will darken. And all the things of nightmares will descend from the darkness to visit you. They will come for you.

All of those worst aspects of yourself.

And all of the terrible things, and people, they attract.

Your sanity will be assailed. Your mind will be bombarded. Noise will come from everywhere. The wails of the wounded. Being forced to relive what they have done everyday.

Pills. Alcohol. weed. Speed. Something to slow down.

Surrounded by those who've made themselves into their own demons. They hide from themselves in hazes.

You will become one. Or...

Pray to whatever god you wish. But there is a reason all of the old gods are dead--they never showed up.

And there is a reason yours doesn't answer...

Pray for peace and strength not favors or blessings.

Your god has already given you the abilities you need to succeed with. You are neglecting them. God is not neglecting you.

Prepare, also, for the war.

And when your war comes, dig down and fight. Fight with all the talents that your god gave you to fight with.

The future can seem, at times, so far away.

Your life depends on the outcomes of all of your battles.

Find the warrior in you.

Stop making excuses.

Just fucking start winning.

And you will see something like this in your sky



The beginning of the break in the storm.

The clouds and monsters will only go away if you make the. You must force them to.

And when you do, you will be who your god made you to be...


 

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